When It Rains, It FOURS

Today has been a super rainy day in Kansas City. It started last night with thunderstorms. It rained all morning and was pouring when I splashed my way into the reproductive endocrinologist’s office nice and early today. Now it’s late afternoon and another thunderstorm just moved through. It’s not unusual for KC weather: when it rains, it pours. It’s … More When It Rains, It FOURS

Waning Optimism

Before our journey with infertility started, I had a completely different understanding of pregnancy and how it works. I thought, you’re either pregnant, and you get to be happy and tell people and celebrate; or you’re not pregnant, and you have to wait. I feel like we’re in a very gray area somewhere in between … More Waning Optimism

Hold For Release

In the news and communications world, there is a well-known and often-respected term and concept known as “hold for release.” The shorthand is “HFR.” It’s the opposite of “for immediate release” and basically is a request from an information agency for a news agency to wait to share any important information. An HFR gives news agencies … More Hold For Release

New Norms

It’s strange how quickly we adapt to our norms. I mean this generally and the norms of living with infertility. Before we tried to have children, it was normal for me to see my OB/GYN once a year, maybe twice if I wasn’t feeling well or needed a birth control prescription updated. I like her … More New Norms

Baby Limbo

Obviously the worst thing about infertility is the problem of infertility itself: being unable to have a baby. Once you’ve accepted that as a challenge and part of the burden to bear though, it becomes more of a “given.” I’ve gotten comfortable with the mindset that pregnancy without in vitro fertilization would be a boon, a … More Baby Limbo

Camping and Cramping

Some day I will get to take a pregnancy test and sit on pins and needles waiting to see the results. Some day, but not any day this week. The last instructions I had from my reproductive endocrinologist were to bang Michael for three straight days, wait two weeks and call them with the results … More Camping and Cramping

Everything is a Pregnancy Symptom If You Google Hard Enough

File this under: two-week-wait rants. We are one week into a two-week-wait that seems like it’s taken about four months. This cycle has been crazy long because our nurse and doctor were pretty conservative with stimulating my follicles. That was a little agonizing, but going to the ER with ovarian hyperstimulation syndrome definitely would have been worse. … More Everything is a Pregnancy Symptom If You Google Hard Enough