Hold For Release

In the news and communications world, there is a well-known and often-respected term and concept known as “hold for release.” The shorthand is “HFR.” It’s the opposite of “for immediate release” and basically is a request from an information agency for a news agency to wait to share any important information. An HFR gives news agencies … More Hold For Release

New Norms

It’s strange how quickly we adapt to our norms. I mean this generally and the norms of living with infertility. Before we tried to have children, it was normal for me to see my OB/GYN once a year, maybe twice if I wasn’t feeling well or needed a birth control prescription updated. I like her … More New Norms

Baby Limbo

Obviously the worst thing about infertility is the problem of infertility itself: being unable to have a baby. Once you’ve accepted that as a challenge and part of the burden to bear though, it becomes more of a “given.” I’ve gotten comfortable with the mindset that pregnancy without in vitro fertilization would be a boon, a … More Baby Limbo

Camping and Cramping

Some day I will get to take a pregnancy test and sit on pins and needles waiting to see the results. Some day, but not any day this week. The last instructions I had from my reproductive endocrinologist were to bang Michael for three straight days, wait two weeks and call them with the results … More Camping and Cramping

Everything is a Pregnancy Symptom If You Google Hard Enough

File this under: two-week-wait rants. We are one week into a two-week-wait that seems like it’s taken about four months. This cycle has been crazy long because our nurse and doctor were pretty conservative with stimulating my follicles. That was a little agonizing, but going to the ER with ovarian hyperstimulation syndrome definitely would have been worse. … More Everything is a Pregnancy Symptom If You Google Hard Enough

Eating For… One

Anyone who knows me well knows I love to eat. Like a lot. Sweet, salty, veggies, junk food, tofu, steak, it doesn’t matter. I will eat it. It’s what got me to a spot where I needed to drop a few (okay, 45) pounds. Eating well and (and looking forward to it every day) in moderation … More Eating For… One

31-Day Wait

The two-week-wait concept cracks me up. It feels more like a 31-day wait. Or a series of two-day waits… over and over and over again. I am antsy pretty much every day of the babymaking process, waiting around for the next opportunity to be one step closer to a pregnancy. When my period starts, I’m already … More 31-Day Wait